The Awakening
If you are reading this right now, there is a chance you have individuals in your life who act as beacons of light and sources of strength for family, coworkers, creative/business partners and friends. This person I am referring to may be you. If you are this person for others, I send my love and compassion to you. Your unyielding strength and indomitable will has given you wings to fly over hurdles, and the uncanny ability to conquer all that you have on your journey in a world designed to extract you from your soul. This deed is otherworldly.
Whether your story is reverberating throughout the outskirts of the universe or not, you are one of the reasons I have pushed through. Yes, you... the person reading this right now. It is the stories I have heard thus far that have pushed me beyond my limits, however, it is also the stories I have not heard that have penetrated my core to transform. This transformation has driven me to put words to what is not seen, but felt on a visceral level. You may wonder, how could this be? I will put it this way: silence is the essential tool needed to have the truth find you, but it should never be used to conceal the truth.
Sharispeaks.com is inspired by the beautiful souls I have been so blessed to know who have bravely spoken their truth, encouraging and inspiring me to do the same. The most healing element in the universe is sound. It is through a voice that shows the connectivity and oneness of all. You can then begin to flow, rather than tie yourself in knots trying to make yourself believe you are isolated. In silence, we may not always understand the connectivity of all, which is the understanding that takes us to our deepest levels of healing. Even through the lack of words that are not clearly identifying facts or painting a picture of an unkind reality, I know what exists beyond the veil of silence, and can feel it. I speak up because I know what others hold in. This process was not easy. It took a lot of releasing, uncovering, forgiveness and beyond to expel this story. It is time to let a story be a story, and not become attached to it. It is time to share a story to help others do the same. The purpose of doing this is to let anyone reading this know that they are not alone in the process.
Here is a forewarning: do not be fooled. The outcome of what you visually see on the surface does not magically fall into place. It is a compilation of various factors and facets that should never be taken for granted. Someone could look at another person and say, "Wow, that person is so much ______ (insert adjective) than I am." If this ever comes up in your thought process, I encourage you to ask the person their daily routine, or what it took for them to reach this level of awareness. There is usually quite a story to be told. I would release the assumption that it must be so easy. Instead, send your love and cease your judgement before you continue to waste time permeating your own mind with lies. Any accusations of how nice or easy it may be are false and insulting to those who put the work in. Now that I have cleared that piece of the puzzle, I can move on to the next piece to be digested: this work is not fleeting. It may not be overnight. It may take a life time(s). If you decide to commit, it will change the course of your life forever.
A favorite past time of mine consists of breaking through walls to really understand the depths of life, however, I came to a point where I came face to face with a threshold. I took on a commitment, and could not let a bump in the road stop my persistence. Once I saw what was being revealed after pushing forward, I must admit this line of work was quite daunting at first. It involved me staring my ego down and uncovering what was truly holding me back. This process made me feel like a scientist putting their ego on a microscope to be zoomed in on. As this occurred, I realized a story I had been holding in was permeating my nervous system. My soul felt the call to tell it. For so long I had held this in, and the moment I discovered part of my journey was to reveal this story to the world, I caved in with anxiety. My nosy two cent giving ego asked, "Oh, telling your story? Revealing what you thought would once be taken to the grave? Oh no, you can't do that! What will your family think? Being vulnerable? What's that?" Once I witnessed my ego's way of trying to further isolate from humanity, I immediately let out a raging belly laugh, quickly snatched my ego out of the driver seat and took control of the wheel. As I tossed what was holding me back out of the passenger's window, I smiled and said, "Sayonara my friend. Better luck next time! Not in this life time," and put my foot on the pedal like I was speeding away in a Ferrari on a race track. This was the work needed to get me on my true north.
Ferrari comes to mind, as the famous race team's emblem Cavallino Rampante literally translates to "prancing horse." You can say I sped away, or pranced away; whatever you think is fitting. The one thing I built from the experience of investigating the workings of the ego was momentum and endurance, as any intense undertaking like this is essentially helping you prepare for the marathon we call life. You need to be physically, mentally and spiritually fit. You need to train the mind like a warrior to conquer this battlefield.
At this point in my journey, I have decided to do the opposite. For some people, their fear is heights. For some people, their fear is spiders. For me: it was vulnerability. It was sharing my truth. It was expressing the good, bad and the ugly. In order to take the charge out of a story, it had to be told. I would encourage anyone who has gone through anything similar to express yourself. Do not let a story sit in your body and continue to have power over your nervous system. Get it out to encourage others to stop holding it in. If you held in your breath, you would lose your life. If I held in this story, I would not be living the highest quality of life I can possibly reach. Life is too short to not become the ultimate best version of yourself there is. If I could be of service to you by saving you time, money and heartbreak, I would do so by encouraging you to make your insecurity your security. Integrate. You need that darkness to propel you. It is absolutely gorgeous and does not need to be tucked away in a closet. It is like the beautiful dress or suit you never wear because it doesn't seem to be the right occasion. Who cares? Pull it out and wear it anyway. There will never be a perfect time. Just start wearing it now while you can still breathe and move in the flesh. Do not wait until your last day on this Earth.